Here I am, rolling in my bed for the past two hours and unable to fall asleep while you're out enjoying yourself. I've been a very angsty girlfriend lately, being angry at my boyfriend for every little thing he does. From going to Taiwan and not telling me about things he did there, to not updating me about what his movements are, to drinking so damn often. What's next I wonder. I totally know I'm a super possessive girlfriend. Wonder why I'm not like that at the start of each relationship? Cos that's the honeymoon period! You guys bring me wherever you go. There wasn't anything for me to doubt cos I can see everything before my very own eyes. You guys always think it's becos tgt for too long and become sticky. It's not. It's the actions in a long term relationship that doesn't make us girls feel secure. I've heard enough stories from the girls' side. Imagine if I'm the one who goes drinking with my friends every week, going overseas and drink every single f-ing night with phone batt dead and messaging you only when I get home. Would you feel that it's okay? I suck at being in a relationship seriously. Don't freaking understand how it should work well. Tell me if how i'm feeling and doing is wrong. Or I should be a nun instead.