Elis Ong @elisongelis
on Thursday, January 20, 2011 //
today is such a bad day that i have to blog it out.
firstly, i overslept as my ears failed to hear my alarm and the 5 missed calls from taxi driver. woke up in a shock as i saw it was alr 805am, and squashing bigbutt under my fat thighs as i rolled out of my bed. i was supposed to open the store by 6am btw.
secondly, i received my father's sms about him wanting to leave the house by next week. for good and it's confirmed. i've tried to stop him for too many years and it's time to let him go, for his happiness and less hurt. i'm not my mother and i can't put my soul into her and change things. let it be, elis. no more happy family but maybe happier parents if they go their own ways? will this affect my love life? my marriage? i've heard stories about a boy or girl not wanting their partner just because his or her parents are divorced. i hope this won't happen to me. i would love my husband wholeheartedly and put in my very all to make my marriage a loving peaceful one, and not end up like my parents. cos i fear once.
thirdly, my family has somehow found out something about me all along. wow, shocked and sian. plus, aaron's doggie is sick. hopefully it's a small illness and it will recover fast!
i don't like being alone cos it makes me think a lot and reflect on my life. though i have a loving boyfriend and friends, i still do not feel loved enough. maybe it's the lack of family love that other families usually have. empty is a word i would use to describe my family. as such, i needed a lot of attention and love from my boyfriend to cover this lack. thank you, boyfiee.
so many disappointing matters poured onto me in the day. i have no mood to do anything else, just in case another thing goes wrong again. i should sleep it off, i wish i could sleep and never wake up.
life sucks.
firstly, i overslept as my ears failed to hear my alarm and the 5 missed calls from taxi driver. woke up in a shock as i saw it was alr 805am, and squashing bigbutt under my fat thighs as i rolled out of my bed. i was supposed to open the store by 6am btw.
secondly, i received my father's sms about him wanting to leave the house by next week. for good and it's confirmed. i've tried to stop him for too many years and it's time to let him go, for his happiness and less hurt. i'm not my mother and i can't put my soul into her and change things. let it be, elis. no more happy family but maybe happier parents if they go their own ways? will this affect my love life? my marriage? i've heard stories about a boy or girl not wanting their partner just because his or her parents are divorced. i hope this won't happen to me. i would love my husband wholeheartedly and put in my very all to make my marriage a loving peaceful one, and not end up like my parents. cos i fear once.
thirdly, my family has somehow found out something about me all along. wow, shocked and sian. plus, aaron's doggie is sick. hopefully it's a small illness and it will recover fast!
i don't like being alone cos it makes me think a lot and reflect on my life. though i have a loving boyfriend and friends, i still do not feel loved enough. maybe it's the lack of family love that other families usually have. empty is a word i would use to describe my family. as such, i needed a lot of attention and love from my boyfriend to cover this lack. thank you, boyfiee.
so many disappointing matters poured onto me in the day. i have no mood to do anything else, just in case another thing goes wrong again. i should sleep it off, i wish i could sleep and never wake up.
life sucks.
Elis Ong @elisongelis
on Sunday, January 16, 2011 //
problematic stage of elis' life has reached again.
i hope aaron's fine now. do my boyfriends always feel insecure being around me? i've changed for the better but i guess it's still not enough. spent lots of quality time with aaron ever since he came back from all his overseas trips (: attention-seeking girlfriend is really glad her sweet boyfriend is willing to spend time with her whenever he's free besides school, bowling and family. i know he too have changed so much compared to last time in order to make this relationship work. thanks dar, you rock! believe me when i say i love you. and it's just you and me ♡
family chalet is supposed to bond the family tgt, but it didn't. be it becos of the cat or my mother, father wants to move out of the house again. not that he really did the previous time, after we persuaded him not to. cny is coming though i can't really celebrate, but will i even have a proper happy reunion dinner? no more cny party at my house nor collecting angpows this year for elis. those aren't impt. i just want a happy family.
i think i haven't mention in my blog that i'm working at gelare :D since june 2010. and i'm blogging using company's laptop! haha. lastly, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CLWJ! (:
i hope aaron's fine now. do my boyfriends always feel insecure being around me? i've changed for the better but i guess it's still not enough. spent lots of quality time with aaron ever since he came back from all his overseas trips (: attention-seeking girlfriend is really glad her sweet boyfriend is willing to spend time with her whenever he's free besides school, bowling and family. i know he too have changed so much compared to last time in order to make this relationship work. thanks dar, you rock! believe me when i say i love you. and it's just you and me ♡
family chalet is supposed to bond the family tgt, but it didn't. be it becos of the cat or my mother, father wants to move out of the house again. not that he really did the previous time, after we persuaded him not to. cny is coming though i can't really celebrate, but will i even have a proper happy reunion dinner? no more cny party at my house nor collecting angpows this year for elis. those aren't impt. i just want a happy family.
i think i haven't mention in my blog that i'm working at gelare :D since june 2010. and i'm blogging using company's laptop! haha. lastly, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CLWJ! (:
Elis Ong @elisongelis
on Sunday, January 02, 2011 //
what a bad start of 2011. i spent my new year's eve with a slight fever, vomitting my way from home to city hall, ls-ing, and almost blackout due to the giddiness. it was quite a torture as whatever i ate, i will vomit it out after some time. but i'm glad i get to see the fireworks (: aaron accompanied me to see doctor the next morning and i slept till today. i feel bad cos i've passed my gastric flu to him :( and his school is starting tmr. i really hope you will recover by tonight! and hopefully i never pass to anybody else. stomach's churning, i need to ls again!