you make me wanna scream I LOVE YOU! at the top of my voice.

grabbed every moment of book-out-back-to-civilized-world life,
completed whatever we had planned days ago -manymanythings :D
i will leave the details in our book of memories.

it's the eye contact that we lack of.
what about some cuddling after that?
it would make me feel much better.

caught up with darl lessie with whole bunch of stories,
and elis' ears opened wide.

too much sushi for past weeks :S


i have found out the answer.
i'm free from my deep shit.
luckily.

the line between close friends and lovers is so thin,
too thin that we can barely see it.

wanna know why do ppl two-time their partners?
becos they are afraid that their partners will leave them some day. so to avoid heartbreaks, they two-time. to prevent them from doing so, make sure your partners feel loved, desired and secure about you!
xoxo, elis the self-claimed love expert.


my skin colour is turned from yellow to brown, and now brownish-black. ahh, if i were to continue swimming at this rate and under such scorching global-warming sun, i will become BLACK. my tan line is seriously ugly. i will avoid wearing sleeveless tops till it goes off. but i really love swimming(: favourite sport other than bowling. my poor pig friend is in a worse condition. she's as red as a cooked lobster. hahaha funny though.

i love sitting down tgt with tkgs friends, and talk about everything anything. they're always so 'bimbo' and full of hilarious stories that made me laugh so hard. ending my day with a big smile :D no matter how long we may not contact each other, we are still the same. thanks ppl for waiting for me! and thanks fad for listening to me! love lots(:

3 more days! ahh i'm so excited, with all our great plans to treasure every single minute :D


the delivery report is killing me!
it always takes more than hours to deliver my smses to chris.
it's either tekong is too far or its reception is damn poor.
ahhhh, deliver it faster to my bored chrissy!

i enjoyed days spent with you.
but i hope i don't fall deep in to the point of relying too much on you.
i wonder how you feel about us, what and how you want us to be.
i'm sorry that i don't wanna make this known.
give me more time.

more swimming with pig, on the way!


CLWJ, I MISS YOU!
though it has been only one week.
i wanna hang out with you soon!

i don't wanna be unemployed alr!
get me some part-time job.
let it be f&b or retail.
ELIS AVAILABLE FOR HIRING!

it's worrying that my phone is not ringing with unknown numbers on it.
where's my uni and job calls?
saded.

life has been swimming, bowling, shopping,
eating, sleeping, sms-ing, phoning, tv-ing.
managed to meet pig, lessie, jean, rach, ly, daryl, pet, r, rh
and sam, alicia, yt for awhile.
all in 3 days. lazy to elaborate them :P
and have i mentioned that i don't like my driving instructor?
eee, disgusted.


watched 17 again,
drooled in the cinema.
zac efron's really damn hot and cute :D


was looking through photos in search for some to develop.
i realised we were once so damn close, doing almost everything tgt. but things start to change just one year later. oh well, let the past be the past.

travelled to choa chu kang and bukit panjang today with fy the pig to explore the other side of sg, and shop :D bought quite a few clothes.

i shall name this week, elis' HAPPYYY week :DDD
due to many many reasons. muahaha
i see two more make-elis-smile days coming up!


I'M A VERY HAPPY GIRL! :DDD
i wonder if this will get me into trouble, but i shall not care for now.
i actually like the idea of NS.
boys really become nicer when they are locked in there :P
and and,
i also got back in contact with my girlfriends!
really feel good to catch up(:

you make me smile so easily :D


Will you fall for someone whom your friends and family disagree?

Reluctant but I can't help it.


confession of guilt
apologetic towards you.
i have brought it to a stage where even i could not believe myself.
it's the lack of love and intimacy.
and the main cause, me.

two more days to chris' enlistment.
did not really had the chance to spend much time with him these few days.
but oh well, i will suffer the loneliness for next 3 weeks
and wait for the botak chrissy to book out.
ahh i'll miss you horribly!
the worse ever for any other guys
): ): ):


flirt to cover up the insecurity.
it's a psychological thing,
to make my heart feel better.
only if you could show more love,
give me more attention.
i'm a massive attention-seeker.

thanks for popping out of nowhere,
and brightening up my day
though many unpleasant stuff happened.



seeking for job is more exhausting than i thought.
completely drained my energy to the point of me collapsing on the bed upon reaching home, and resulted in slight fever.
the fussy pig's fault.
:P


more of the brain, and less of the heart.
somehow.

The movie 'Once', introduced by sean, is actually quite a good arty farty one. Very different from the typical movies that i usually watch. It's their songs that got my attention. The ending was unexpected, to me at least. Bored ppl, go watch :D talking about farty, i miss fad ):
'Gossip Girls' - My night entertainment. Love how it always make me feel so bitchy at the end of every episode.

I had a bone-cracking, muscle-aching day today.
But i enjoyed your company.


I watched a movie recently, called 'Pay It Forward'.
It has indeed inspired me. 'Pay it forward' conjures the notion of paying a favor not back, but forward - repaying good deeds not with payback, but with new good deeds done to three new people.
After the sudden exposure to the ugly side of the world, i wish to change the world too. By putting some positive changes - random acts of kindness.
I know i have not been nice to some people recently, however i will start not by forgetting, but by forgiving. Not that i have much to forgive, since most of the problem comes from me and my brain, my heart. My feelings, my personality, maybe i should make things clear to all my friends so that such incidents will not happen again. It feels horrible.
Don't be too shocked if all of the sudden, i treat you nice. I have never liked rejecting people anyway. I know how bad it feels.

I'm glad i still have besties (not good friends, but best friends) to hear me rant about daily happenings. And i still miss those ns boys. Yt, your one month trip feels like a year! It's really one FAT month without you around. Hmm, wonder if you will read this. I will keep this post on the same page till you come back. It's indeed true that only when someone is away, you will realise how important that person is to you. Not that i didn't realise earlier, but it confirms it.
And i must say, i love picking up ns boys' phone calls - interesting!


i hate this whole company thing!
i knew things gonna change.
i'm not going to care about anything,
whether i'm free or not next week.
i'm going to make my own plans and
get myself a job.
screw everything!


i miss you, my boy.
badly.
a reason i don't wish to reveal.
just wanna see you soon.
real soon.