Elis Ong @elisongelis
on Thursday, February 10, 2011 //
God must have brought him back into my life to unveil all my wrongdoings.
Life has always been easy and smooth. Love life, i have been dumped one after another and got hurt many times. I didn't have any choice. Love life decides to twist and change, and lovers come back to my side. Too much to handle? You could say that. For more than a year, i have struggled to get the answers from my heart, trying to feel who's truly the one for me. In the process, I hurt both of them. Badly. I didn't want to lose both, so I went out with both by not telling them much stuff. I know this is called lying, i'm a big fat liar. Why did it turn out this way that making this big decision would mean me losing one of them? Indeed there is no such thing called friendship when one clearly still loves you. An attempt to not hurt anyone has caused even more pain and heartbreak. I'm sorry.
I do not know what the future holds. Right or wrong, i have made my decision now to appreciate and love what i have in front of me. His forgiveness touched me. And i would change the old me into a better trustworthy girlfriend. This would create a scar in our relationship, but i will mend it in time to come. No matter how long it will be.
Life has always been easy and smooth. Love life, i have been dumped one after another and got hurt many times. I didn't have any choice. Love life decides to twist and change, and lovers come back to my side. Too much to handle? You could say that. For more than a year, i have struggled to get the answers from my heart, trying to feel who's truly the one for me. In the process, I hurt both of them. Badly. I didn't want to lose both, so I went out with both by not telling them much stuff. I know this is called lying, i'm a big fat liar. Why did it turn out this way that making this big decision would mean me losing one of them? Indeed there is no such thing called friendship when one clearly still loves you. An attempt to not hurt anyone has caused even more pain and heartbreak. I'm sorry.
I do not know what the future holds. Right or wrong, i have made my decision now to appreciate and love what i have in front of me. His forgiveness touched me. And i would change the old me into a better trustworthy girlfriend. This would create a scar in our relationship, but i will mend it in time to come. No matter how long it will be.