Elis Ong @elisongelis
on Thursday, January 20, 2011 //
today is such a bad day that i have to blog it out.
firstly, i overslept as my ears failed to hear my alarm and the 5 missed calls from taxi driver. woke up in a shock as i saw it was alr 805am, and squashing bigbutt under my fat thighs as i rolled out of my bed. i was supposed to open the store by 6am btw.
secondly, i received my father's sms about him wanting to leave the house by next week. for good and it's confirmed. i've tried to stop him for too many years and it's time to let him go, for his happiness and less hurt. i'm not my mother and i can't put my soul into her and change things. let it be, elis. no more happy family but maybe happier parents if they go their own ways? will this affect my love life? my marriage? i've heard stories about a boy or girl not wanting their partner just because his or her parents are divorced. i hope this won't happen to me. i would love my husband wholeheartedly and put in my very all to make my marriage a loving peaceful one, and not end up like my parents. cos i fear once.
thirdly, my family has somehow found out something about me all along. wow, shocked and sian. plus, aaron's doggie is sick. hopefully it's a small illness and it will recover fast!
i don't like being alone cos it makes me think a lot and reflect on my life. though i have a loving boyfriend and friends, i still do not feel loved enough. maybe it's the lack of family love that other families usually have. empty is a word i would use to describe my family. as such, i needed a lot of attention and love from my boyfriend to cover this lack. thank you, boyfiee.
so many disappointing matters poured onto me in the day. i have no mood to do anything else, just in case another thing goes wrong again. i should sleep it off, i wish i could sleep and never wake up.
life sucks.
firstly, i overslept as my ears failed to hear my alarm and the 5 missed calls from taxi driver. woke up in a shock as i saw it was alr 805am, and squashing bigbutt under my fat thighs as i rolled out of my bed. i was supposed to open the store by 6am btw.
secondly, i received my father's sms about him wanting to leave the house by next week. for good and it's confirmed. i've tried to stop him for too many years and it's time to let him go, for his happiness and less hurt. i'm not my mother and i can't put my soul into her and change things. let it be, elis. no more happy family but maybe happier parents if they go their own ways? will this affect my love life? my marriage? i've heard stories about a boy or girl not wanting their partner just because his or her parents are divorced. i hope this won't happen to me. i would love my husband wholeheartedly and put in my very all to make my marriage a loving peaceful one, and not end up like my parents. cos i fear once.
thirdly, my family has somehow found out something about me all along. wow, shocked and sian. plus, aaron's doggie is sick. hopefully it's a small illness and it will recover fast!
i don't like being alone cos it makes me think a lot and reflect on my life. though i have a loving boyfriend and friends, i still do not feel loved enough. maybe it's the lack of family love that other families usually have. empty is a word i would use to describe my family. as such, i needed a lot of attention and love from my boyfriend to cover this lack. thank you, boyfiee.
so many disappointing matters poured onto me in the day. i have no mood to do anything else, just in case another thing goes wrong again. i should sleep it off, i wish i could sleep and never wake up.
life sucks.