I wonder if money is the cause of what stopped me from achieving certain things in life. Things like going for exchange, taking special sem to clear more modules to get myself a business minor or graduation trips with friends. I feel suffocated with less than a thousand bucks in all of my bank accounts to survive till I graduate and get myself a job. It restricts me. I might say it's fine that I do not join my friends for grad trips. But I hope I wouldn't regret this in future. Like what people usually say, life is short. Parents are struggling to keep themselves alive and feed the huge debts. I wouldn't want to burden them any further. I know I'm already very lucky to be living such life, much luckier than many other poor people out there. I appreciate all that I have currently. I shouldn't compare with my friends. So what if you don't go for any grad trips, elis ong? Work hard and save money for future overseas trips instead! You don't have to go immediately after graduation. I'm so silly and childish.